time.

it's hard to believe that it's been a year since i was treking across the UVU parking lot. running out the door nearly everyday to drop rubes off at preschool or kids on the move. it was busy and long and tiring to my very pregnant body. i actually thought it might NEVER end. but guess what? it ended. and i'm now cleaning up after a wild and crazy baby boy and a gimp, my broken legged ruby.

i feel like this is a constant trend in life. just feeling very much like this will never end. but in all reality these little things end, so very quickly.

i got sad about that today, when nic and i were talking about potty training fitz. he's only ten months old. but rubes was potty trained around 18 months, which means i only have eight months to change diapers. yes, i can see the benefits. but i love my guy, i love my baby. and i don't want him growing any faster than he is. but i'm pretty excited that we are over the diaper hill (for now!)

there is no question that this is going to be the story of my life. especially over this holiday season that is about to begin. it always starts with back to school time. it's almost rubes birthday, fitz birthday, our anniversary. it's just a time of fresh starts.

we have had a little more of an adjustment than i ever imagined. i loved the idea of moving out of utah and the grand adventure it would be. i was gung ho about it since the beginning and wanted to get as far as fast away from utah as possible.

today i am learning that there is more to moving away than the great adventure. i am missing the silliest of things. but i am missing them. hospitals, doctors, and preschools being the very top of my list.and do not even get me started on the fall weather. turns out i don't care about the hot vegas summers. bring them on. just shoot me in the foot and send me to utah (or preferably door county, wisconsin) for september, october and november!

we have made adjustments and things are going good. with time i know i will laugh at this trial. i will get used to cleaning this bigger house. to not having my mom babysit for anything and everything i might need. and i will maybe enjoy the brisk weather in january instead of freezingness. maybe march warmth. i can take the cold through march.